After spending the weekend doing not a lot well apart from Christmas shopping and putting up Christmas tree decorations and doing lots of odd jobs I'm not sure I actually feEl any better!! I'm trying to convince myself That I do!! The reality is that tomorrow I am back to work and I have got myself in a right state about it!!! I love my job but Its so busy at this time of year and I know sooner or later im going to end up in hospital so I'm going to let everyone down!! I have no idea what to do for the best I just want to hide away from the world at the moment! I wish everything was so different or my body would just give me a break!! Oh well I guess I need some sleep before my busy week begins!! Night world!!