I want to run away and hide!!

sometimes it would be so much easier to just run away and hide for a while, the problem is this is never the solution i guess!!
It was a hard week last week and then had a big family bbq last night so i am absolutely knackered now, nice quiet day today in the hope i can build up some energy for another week.
Last week things came to a bit of a head and i finally admitted how bad i feel to someone and how sometimes it is easier to not say anything, i guess i am trying to protect other people and myself and if i dont say anything then it isnt real. I am not sure what is going to happen but fingers crosssed tomorrow there may be some answers with consultant appointment. Well we can hope anyway. A few weeks ago i was terrified of what might happen and now i kind of just dont care anymore, i need a life and at the moment i just feel like i am going through the motions but not living at all.
I feel really irritated at the moment and everything is getting to me, i am also very frustrated by the whole situation and how much i cant do at the moment, even simple things are hard work, i am lucky to have very supportive friends and i just dont tell them often enough. I just wish i could hide away from the world for a couple of days and summon up some energy from somewhere to keep going. Oh well what will be will be i guess.