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Wednesday 11 April 2012

missing you more than ever!!

Tomorrow it will 13 years since the decisions was made to turn of my mums life support machine, i will never get over that day and as much as it has become more bearable it still hurts.


In the beginning  i used to look down the road and wish it was all a mistake and you would walk back into our lives. 
Such a lot has happened since then and life has changed so much in good and bad ways. Everyone has moved there lives forward and i know that 13 years is a long time but i dont think people realise how much they should appreciate there mums, i never told mine often enough and have lots of regrets. I miss not being able to ask her advise and having her to lean on. I wonder what life would be like now if she hadn't gone!!
I think people should be grateful for what and who they have as it can be taken away very quickly.


This is a poem i wrote a few years ago for my mum so thought i would add it here.
It broke our hearts to lose you, but you did not go alone Part of us went with you the day God called you home.A million times we have thought of you, a million times we have cried.If loving could have saved you, you would have never died.Forgive me Lord, while we always weep.For the one we loved, but could not keep.You were always warm, happy and bright Now we see you sparkle every night.You will always be cherished in our hearts forever. Family and friends


Tomorrow is going to be hard but i guess its just another day.




Apart from this going on this week i have had a good week, i managed to catch up on loads of work and have such a laugh doing it.  I have also spent some time with Kate and it has been so nice, just like old times i think i forgot how much of laugh we can have. 


As for the hip that's driving me mad, it infected so i am on more antibiotics. I have been lectured today about walking on it as i was told not to but that's easier said than done but tomorrow i will try and use the crutches, if i break my neck then i can tell them i told you so!!


Oh well not alot else to say
xxx

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