It seems like ages since i have updated this but thought i would today as a way of getting a few things of my chest.
Things are not going well and i am being irritated really easy at the moment and i am not sure why. I have started some new drugs which are making me feel sick and absolutely exhausted, Methotrexate and doxyclyine are there names and part of me thinks its not worth it for the side effects however from a chest point of view it is much better so i am kind of stuck at the moment and hopefully things will get better.
I am finding work really tough, partly due to it being the most busiest time of the year for me but also because i am so tired. I also feel like i am being pulled in a hundred different directions and whilst i don't mind i just get so behind with my work and then i end up panicking over it. I also feel like someone that i used to be quite close to is always getting cross with me for no real reason and i end up being really upset, i know its me being daft and i just need to get a grip but I am not really coping with it all and i have no one to tell so just have to keep going i guess. I guess my body will tell me when it has enough.
I have stopped my counselling as i wasn't finding it helpful, I'm still taking the anti depressants but they don't seem to be doing such a good job but then again that could be just because i am so tired, i am also having problems with being bothered to do things and have started to dread going out and even going to work again, i also feel quite paranoid again so maybe the counselling was doing something i don't know.
I am not sure what the future holds but what will be will be i guess.
As for home i am not going to go into to much details but things are not good and i feel like just running away from it all but that's not possible so I'm kind of stuck really.
Oh well not a lot else to whinge about and hopefully by the next time i post here things will be a little bit different
xxxxxx
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