busy busy week again!
somehting good happened  though i had a cold and htought i was going to end up in my second home but i didnt so something must be imrpoving. stillnot bad infection but it seems no amount of antibiotics are gonna kill it. Oh well see what happens i guess. Finally i am organising myself at home and work and i feel like things are settling into place, i just hope it lasts, the thing that worries me the most is that i am  expecting to much.
had a really horrible thing happen on friday and whilst i usually dont care  if people are talking about me i thinkpeople should be more careful, aparently i live and die work, well in a way they are right but i dont do it for the reason they give!! aparently i do it to creep to management, i can asssure you this is not the case, the real  reason is sometimes i am to scared to be at home, especially when i dont feel well. for some reason being at work makes me feel a bit better and knowing i have people around me that i trust makes me feel safer.
anyway tonight things are not good pain wise so have taken a bucked full of painkillers and gonna fall asleep in a minute, this probably makes no sense and i will do a better update when i feel more awake.